Sunday, February 19th will be the 7th Anniversary of Jackson’s death, and February 23rd will be his 12th birthday. I feel almost like I’ve lived two lives. There are the years “before Jackson” and “after Jackson.” Our first family was Chris, myself, Jackson & Harry. Jackson was my first baby. He was my buddy, and … Continue reading Anniversary #7
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February is here. The month that changed the course of our lives forever. It comes without asking me and leaves as if nothing changed. Jackson should be planning his 10th birthday, on Feb. 23rd. Instead, we as his family are planning it without him. We make it a fun day, and we always make a … Continue reading February is here.
I haven’t been able to write publicly for a long time. I have written down things privately that have helped me work through my grief, but I just didn’t feel ready to share those things. When I first started this blog, the words poured out of my soul. It didn’t take much work. I honestly … Continue reading The Cold Air
You ever make this awesome declaration and then end up having to take it back …..Yeah, that’s me! So I was honestly gearing up to run a half marathon in April. I mean, I blogged about it so I had to be serious 🙂 However, my ankle was not cooperating at all. It ached pretty … Continue reading
I’m sitting bundled up in my blanket on our back porch with a good book. A really good book. The hot coffee in my favorite mug is warming my hands and my belly. It’s winter, but I don’t mind the cold too bad. I have one child happily playing in his room. The other child … Continue reading
I like to pick a word or phrase each year to help me grow throughout the year. Last year’s was “Be Kind.” I applied it many ways including with my husband, my children, driving, and checking out at the grocery store. This year I’ve chosen one word and one phrase because I couldn’t decide which … Continue reading
Harry is usually the most emotionally vulnerable at night when we are lying down for bed. And he is a talker. He falls asleep talking actually, mid sentence sometimes. I was extra tired last night and just wanted him to go to sleep. He kept talking about memories and wondered why he didn’t remember things … Continue reading Harry
I have a confession to make. I’m still not okay. I have to make that confession to myself. You’re still not okay. And it’s okay. I have really been struggling with guilt and shame this summer. I have put this expectation on myself that it’s been 3 plus years since Jackson died, and I should … Continue reading I’m still not okay
Shortly after preschool let out for the summer, Harry asked me if he could do his “school papers” at home. I was a little surprised that he asked although he does have a lot of friends that homeschool. Chris looked at me and said “you should do it!”. So, we started researching homeschooling options. Both … Continue reading School
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